Tiny post

No, this isnt a "real" post.
I just realized that I have been wanting to post something new for a while now, and I havent ever taken the time to do so.
Im still alive if anyone was wondering.
Im having a hard night. I have had more hard nights recently, and im trying to cope with them, I wish I were able to express how I feel more succinctly, but all I seem able to expel is verbal vomit.
I sometimes feel like im failing at being alive. if you dont know what I mean, I cant explain it. Sorry.
Holy crap im depressing!
Nobody knows anything. We'll just jump and we'll see.
:)