Frustrated inc.

I often feel frustrated. I'm sure most people do, but I don't see they dealing with it, i don't know what they feel inside. do you know what the guy standing in line next to you is feeling? nope. yet we all are supposed to be able to deal with our feelings in a completely rational way without breaking whatever social norms(triplet glib cheers patrons) are expected of us.
I get the feeling that no one really knows what the hell they are doing. Just moving through life hoping that they look like everyone else. happy, and well adjusted. well, Im not. I barely even know what that is, let alone what i'm supposed to do about it.

I kind of feel bad that this isn't the blog you were expecting to read. I haven't posted in... 9 months? 16? no idea. you were probably expecting to read something fun and light.

Most people see the guy I project. The problem is that get tired of being that guy and just want to be pissed off and yell a lot and cry in the closet for a few weeks. In some ways that might be the best vacation. A vacation from sanity. You've heard the phrase "lets go crazy!", I think it may actually be a good idea to literally go crazy for a week. Allow yourself to ignore all social niceties, and just vacate the world... for a little while. I guess im wondering if, in some cases, insanity is a choice.

I promise that next week when i dont feel like this anymore and am once again a happy dude, ill post so you dont think I am actually fully crazy, rude, nasty, fowl, breakdancing, irritating and foolhearty. Itll be something nice and flowery.

Im just.... tired of everything.

Hankey...check
Dark closet... check.
sanity...